Notes

Hi, it’s 11:03 pm on the 8th of November 2020.

Today was a busy day and I didn’t have the time to complete my daily to-do-list.

My ideal daily to-do-list:

• Meditate
• Run/gym/box
• Write
• Read
• Practise guitar

So far I’ve crossed off reading, and writing off that list.

Unfortunately I don’t think I’ll have the time to do the rest because it’s already 11:12 pm and the remaining activities are not exactly the best for the night time.

But then again, “The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now.”

So I guess it’s never too late to do it right now.

But nevertheless, I don’t want to.

Out of all the to-do-list errands, meditating and exercise I usually did every day.

But lately, I’ve been slacking and I can feel my grip on the habits slowly waning.

If it keeps happening I’ll probably get to the stage where I won’t want to do any of it anymore.

That’s what scares me, to start from square one from all the progress I’ve made since the start of the year.

But I guess using fear as a way to keep my routine isn’t the best way to go about it either.

Fear of failure, fear of mediocrity, fear of going back to who I was before.

Playing video games, scrolling through my phone for hours, laying around not doing anything for the whole summer.

The past 2 years have changed me for better. I don’t want to lose what I have right now.

My progress, my habits, and most of all my mental state.

Self-improvement is a constant grind that never stops.

It’s not like a video game where you can be level 100 and still be level 100 after a 1-year hiatus.

You could spend all day and night practising a hobby and risk losing it all by skipping just one day.

But I guess that’s just one way to think about it.

I’m pretty happy with where I’m at right now.

I know what’s important to me and what I should focus on.

Think it’s about time for bed, I’ll write soon, hopefully.